The great love I have for you is
false, and I find my indifference towards you
increasing daily, the more I see of you, the more
you appear to my eyes as an object to contempt.
I feel in every way disposed and determined
to hate you. I can assure you that I never intended
to love you. The last time we met has
left an impression on my mind which by no means
impressed me of the extremely high standard of your character.
Your temper would make me extremely unhappy.
If you married me I expect nothing but the
hatred of my friends, added to the everlasting dis-
pleasure of living with you. I have indeed a heart
to bestow, I do not desire to imagine it
at your service. I could not owe it to anyone more
inconsistent or incapable than yourself, and be
capable of doing justice to myself and family.
I think you are aware of the fact that I speak sincerely
and hope you will favour me by
avoiding me. You need not trouble yourself about
answering this letter, as your letters are always full of
insinuations and sarcasm which further destroys our
love, and believe me I am your
disenchanted former love. No longer consider me your